so, this afternoon i just bought a coffee, yeah typical of a gen z. Then i stalked the barista's ig and found out his blog. Thats make me realize that i missed everything, i dont write anything again. Last time i write, last year around december ((like personal journal one and handwritten)) i guess and i wrote how my life stopped, like my whole world drop down and sad and realize that i'm no one and i'm alone and i don't do anything--at that time. 

Things that i should do right now is doing my news i mean yea article. I make news for my organization, news staff hihiw and do my laporan pendahuluan for monday's praktikum. But let's do 'productive procrastination' HAHA

There's alot of things that i want to write here and right now. So let's make small scale, yesterday and today. Yesterday i just go out with my friends, celebrate our small win like yea we join a competition in FT, OIM FT. And ya 1/3 i mean the dept that join this competition is only 3, then kita juara 1. Kinda a shame but nvm this can be a story. 

We having fun in karaoke and mam at blok m. TBH BLOK M IS A THING, LIKE WE BORED AND MUAK AND MUAL AND PLS WHY ALWAYS BLOK M. bUT there;s alot of things that we haven;t try there sih hehehe so yea, love and hate with blok m. then we go back yeay, but one thing is someone text me and asked where i am? i feel so sad, till i write this blog, i still sad. i feel degraded, i feel less and inferior. I just can't handle it.

HHH...I always ask and tell myself that i'm good, i mean i go to this COOL college, i write, have a good-good friends and lovely peer group, i read something cuz i'm not a fool girl, i dress up and cook and bake and sometimes i get my money from my small biz, like i sell a cookie and brownie? i eat something good tho. and i clean up my place and have a good place, comfy, clean, and my house and i smells good bUT hHOW? WHY U DO THAT TO ME? like? Please please wake up bro, after you push me like a shit, you call me back? FYUH HAVE SOME RESPECT.  i WAS fall for you. and now i realize u came from broken home thingy and not read and not have intention for life, and go to club every time, you dont have a taste, you are jamet and not a cool or skena gen z, why i SHOULD come back to you? 

FYUH I SHOULD PUT IDEALISTIC IN A FIRST PLACE.

fuck u man. Then yeah i slept and wake up this morning still feel sad and mad. Clean up my place and do nothing. Going out nyari makan with a friend and jajan and bought a coffee and met friendly barista. Look cool and cute but i think he has a girlfriend. btw i think it's bcz my name that make me EASILY attract or interest on s0meone FYUH. What a wanita penyayang.... :D

yeah cute man with ideal stuff and a bizz like that so on-so on. It's okay. Then i go back to my place and zoom ((but i do nothing, my friends are)) fak men i feel so hopeless romantic. i need a man with a vision and idealist and cool and effort one. FYUH NAH let's just do our task and yea study for UAS. bye